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Name: richelle
Birthday: 2/2/1993
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Sunday, March 11, 2007

Visiting the Memories.

I've never realized how far I've gone that I was afraid to move any further.  Now and then, I would visit my memories and try to savor them.  But in the end, it holds me back.  Sometimes, I get angry at myself when I realized my place in reality.  No more time for innocence... no more time to carry burdens.  All I can do is move on and achieve.

I tend to give up easily and go along with things happening.  This time, I've changed.  The past few weeks I've gained weight in spite I didn't care anymore.  You can't get anywhere in life without caring.

Sometimes I feel like I'm looking out through a glass window.  My friends, they've become more successful than me;  My life style, it's been changing unconditionally with me not being aware of it.  Veronica's moving to Las Vegas and Naomi already have everything she needs.  Yes, I knew there would be a time when we all split up.  However, I didnt realize it would be this soon.

Lush never did liked me.  I guess he wanted someone who wouldn't make him feel like a loser.  For example, if I continued liking him, he wouldn't feel lonely.  But in order to do that, he had to use my heart.  He never replied to that letter I gave him.  After all this time wasting, guys are never worth it.  I worry for Naomi in the future.  When Evan dumps her, will she find friends that will comfort her?  Right now it seems like she rather mostly be with Evan than anyone else. 

I don't want the future to take this rapid pace yet.  I love orchestra when there's only four cellos.  After being in JHO, I know I wont be second cello forever.  I know Cameron's out of my league and we wouldnt be stand parthners anymore.

I realized how much I suffered alone.  My Aunt Laurna died and my grandparents are aging.  I really don't want to see a world without them.  Now I'm beggining to realize why everyone said "Enjoy being a kid because you can never be a Kid again."  Right now I'm wishing to start from the begginning- A fresh start.

But there always have to be a brightside.  I'll reborn myself today and grow to achieve my goals.  I'll make my parents proud and surpass Arnold.  I'll make myself happier and become more social.  Why hide when you can show?  From now on, I'll live my dream.  I'll become a brain surgeon and show a good model towards my siblings.

Afterall, that's all I could do right now.  Right?


Friday, April 07, 2006

Year 2006!

Wow, it's been a long time here.  I thought this xanga would be abandon after I haven't updated. 

Who reads about my life anyway?  xD

Well, Naomi, a very good friend of mine (obviously I told you guys about her in the older enteries), says that I should post a new blog just for time's sake.  So, I think this is going to be a very long blog because time flies.  It's already the '06!

I'm very thankful that I still have my friends that stood by me since we first me.  And they are -drum roll- Naomi Dixion, we first met when I moved into the hood; Paulene Cay, we first met a loonng time ago xD  Back in Westerguard when my cousin hanged out with Jessica Jia's sister who knows Paulene -phew- That required thinking; last but not least Veronica Bean.  We first met in the forth grade and started haning out when my cousin moved.

So, I see you guys left a bunch of comments.  You shouldn't waste your time doing so.  I don't think that I'll be going on here for a long time.

Anyway, about school.  First year at middle school was actually quite hectic.  Just 2 more months until school's over.  And yeah, I had all these silly stupid crushes with these silly nicknames.

1. Klaus

2. Apple Boy

3. Lucious {current}

I'm just writing this for the memory of future me.

So I asked myself why did I ever liked guy #1 and #2?  I thought Klaus had a pretty face and he was the 'Prince Charming.'  Obviously, I think I'm going to make that same silly mistake in the future.  {Excuse my weird British wording.  I just watched this show with British people and now I'm like 'Hehe!  -Inserts British phase here-}  And Apple Boy... I had this weird dream about him where we were all like *Cuddle cuddle* xD.  Don't you just hate dreams like that?  Where you believe in it and think it's going to happen in real life?

So right now I like this dude with the nickname Luscious.  I like to spell it like L-u-c-i-o-u-s cause it's cool like that.  I happen to like him on my birthday.  I think it was even earlier than that when I was devolping a liking for the dude.  But I confessed I liked him to my friends on my b-day. 

I like him because... he acts like a dork.  xD I have a thing for smart dorky flips.  Hahahaha -slaps self- He wears all these, Veronica so calls, nice clothes.  I bet his mommy goes shopping with him.

Now I'm stuck with this dare where I'm suppose to hug him because Naomi and Veronica asked their crushes for a hug who stupiditly refused.  Well, Naomi's crush just respects her so he can't hug her and Veronica's crush was too stupid to figure out what she was saying.

And so, I had all these chances to do it and I missed them cause I have a lack of confidence.  Yeeaaahhhh e.e  I don't even know why I'm stressing over this. 

So today on the bus me and Naomi were talking about our age stages.  I'll just list them down. 

Kindergaten:  Above average creativeness.  I dunno, my teacher would always pharse me when I draw stuff.  Oh!  And I also had a obsession with building blocks and playdough during freetime.  xD
Stage:  The quiet creative chick

First grade:  I think I was was the chick that had a lot of guy friends.  I think they were: Max, Anson, Norbert, Michael... that's all I remember.  I remember playing BBall with them all the time during recess.
Stage:  The child athlete goody-good.

Second grade:  Tutterball (Sp?) hogger/ Pokemon catcher.  Haha, I still have some Pokemon card.
Stage:  Pokemon catcher

Third grade:  I spy books/ eraser collecter.  You: 'Wtf, erasers?'  Yeah, in Westerguard's library they sold cool animal shaped erasers.
Stage:  Quiet goody-good

Forth grade:  New school.  Stupid girly clothes my mom wants me to wear.  -Sigh- Parents sometimes treats me like a doll they like to dress up.
Stage:  Stupid teachers pet-Goody good.

Fifth grade:  'Peace out' was my catch frase.  Watched The Simpsons 2 times a day.  I even started the game of keep awayin my school.  Childish indeed.
Stage:  Hippie

Sixth grade:  Techno freak and cello lover.  I wrote a lot of comics in this grade.  But I seem to cant find it.  I was a representative AZN.  Then life changed so rapid.  I was all hardcore stupid punk head.
Stage:  Azn idiot that Typ3d lyk3 diz and changed to Punk loser idiot.

All this past is giving me bad memories xD.  But it's not like we can forget the past.  Even though we don't remember all of it, we still remember small aspects.

Well, I was reading my old enteries and I was like "Aaron this" "Aaron that."  I liked Aaron ever since we started playing the cello.  What.  The.  Fuck.  What the fuck was wrong with me?  I remember making him this FMA layout just to impress him... and making the best out of my cello to impress him too.  I worried about him too, and I everytime I'm on AIM, I was hoping for him to sign on.  GAH!  Horrible memories!  I just cant believe I had feelings for this heartless dumbass.  And yet, I wasted my time for another egostical jerk.  Someone.  Kill 12-year-old Richelle and destroy her feelngs back then.

Now I don't really feel like writing.  I need... a cookie...

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I changed the layout because the texting was VERY annoying.  Yeah, I know it's Kairi, but I like the way the layout looks like.  Only if there were a Sora version... :D

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Wednesday, April 06, 2005

I get the part that Riku's dark outfit looks like a skirt... but I dont get why Sora has to look like a hollah girl XD.

School was boring.  I brought some orange tic-tacs cause they taste good.  Lol, what could we do without them?  Then after school we went to buy icecream in Rite Aids.  And I got cookie dough cause cookie dough is the best flavor there is XP.  My cousin, Kris thinks that John Stevens, a guy from American Idol 3, was like me because she thinks we have the same hand writing (she compared the John Stevens letter that he had sent to her) we both like the same gum which is pepermint Orbit (she got that info from this site) and we both like the same ice flavor, which is cookie dough.


Sunday, April 03, 2005

Rinoa gots a 'mini-me' bwahahahaha

Today's last day for spring break.  And this sucks cause im sick.. I was feeling better yesterday, but today I got a fever and my cold got worser .  But I still have to go to school tomorow cause I hate missing a day at school  you have to make it up in the next day.  I think ima stay with one xanga for now cause im too lazy to update. 


Wednesday, March 30, 2005

KH FANART:

haha, so what if she's a princess?

Okay, well.  It's spring break and relaxion = good.  There's nothing much to say but I made a new xanga.  I'll still be updating this xanga cause this is my video game fan site thing.  My other xanga would be something more me =D.  I found this really cool fanart with Sora from KH2.



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